Question




                                   Question

I was once asked a question
Do I ever cross your mind anytime?
Silence
Entered the room
Like a thief in the night
A sly smirk
Conjured within me
One eyebrow rose
I began to birth
My thoughts
This insidious
Question
With one deep breath
I exhaled
By no means
Do I reminisce?
Why should I regurgitate memories?
Of what you assumed we had
I cried more than I smiled
With you
You were the epitome of a Midsummer Night’s Dream
Skipping in unpleasant meadows
A Nightmare
I dare dream
At my expense
You conspired
To conquer and destroy
My being
Devour my inner strength
Scold my growth
Replenish my mind
With candy covered lies
In the midst of whom you disguised
Yourself to be
A mere representative
Living in My Mind and Heart Rent Free
With no intentions
On reimbursing my heart
With Real Love
Instead
You falsified your application
For the position
You were hired for
Worked the job
Held a straight face
For a good 6 til 9
Got comfortable
Took my love for granted
Started coming to work late
Unprepared and careless
To the needs of my heart
A forewarning was given
An empty apology
I received
With a bouquet of roses
A temporary smile
A few mediocre laughs
Time well spent
Or so I thought
Only to press rewind
Replay images of yesteryear
Shaking my head
Acknowledging the fact
You never loved yourself
So how could you love someone else?
The life you live
Represents
The Domino Effect
Constant but steady
Falling before one’s eyes
Never realizing
The hearts you trampled on
With no recollection
Of the damage caused
Upon wakening from the trance
Or spell
Only to recognize
I am worth much more
Than you could ever give me
But I do want to thank you
Since your dismissal
Mind you
Removal from my heart
By the grace of the Almighty
All I can do is pray for you
Do I hate you?
No
I embrace
The lessons taught
Games played
God saw fit
Amongst our demise
To say
Check Mate
Farewell my friend
To what could have been...
 
By:  Chyna aka Clevette Roberts