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Megan had just welcomed her son into the world. She was supposed to be happy, right? Overjoyed, right? But Megan felt… empty.
Channel B, Snap #725 – Gratitude 2016
November 18, 2016
Megan had just welcomed her son into the world. She was supposed to be happy, right? Overjoyed, right? But Megan felt… empty.
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Megan had just welcomed her son into the world. She was supposed to be happy, right? Overjoyed, right? But Megan felt empty.
“Channel B” was first written and performed for the 2nd Story storytelling series. It was first published at The Rumpus and later included in The Best American Essays 2013. You can also find it in Stielstra’s recent essay collection, Once I Was Cool. For all things Megan Stielstra, visit http://www.meganstielstra.com/
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