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Mimi Nguyen’s mother, Thanh, has always been super anxious. She obsessively calls Mimi at all hours and is always worried they’re in danger. This paranoia really put a strain on their relationship, until Mimi heard Thanh talking in her sleep one night. And Mimi realized… maybe there were long-hidden family secrets that might explain Thanh’s behavior.
This story contains strong language, graphic depictions of war, and mention of suicide. Please take care while listening.
Thank you, Mimi & Thanh, for sharing your story with us!
Stephanie Foo produced this story – she also wrote a memoir about intergenerational immigrant trauma and her own complex PTSD… in it, she tears down her own walls and shares her and her family’s story. Check out her incredible new book, “What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma.”
Produced by Stephanie Foo, original score by Renzo Gorrio, artwork by Teo Ducot
Season 13 – Episode 9
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